The witch doesn't belong here

On several ocassions i have found out that the witch is often disturbing the fun.
She doesn't love and doesn't act out of love. Here deeds are all focused on herself.
She's always thinking towards herself. In some way she is the queen of the kingdom of self.
In fact she is blind to what others feel in certain circumstances, she is blind for whatever need another person is in. She won't help if she can't benefit herself in it.
So this witch is  a self indulgent person who will end in homegrown,selfmade chaos which nobody in heaven or earth can safe her from anymore. She is blinded by herself. Cold as ice and eartless as a black hole in space. Lonely and lost for ever.
That's her destiny.

When the snow starts melting!!!

When the snow starts melting down the time has come to whom it may concern to look out for a hiding place. 'cause it is evident that as the snow starts to melt the earth , its soil and all the trees and flowers will come back to life again. Animals will start talking again nd we will be able to understand what they say to us. We're all doctor Doolittles by then.
Never doubt these facts 'cause they are written down on the inside of the stonetable.
Together with the small pieces of rope  nibbled through  by the smallest of mice. Nephews of Reepicheep the brave. These are the signs that the great Emperor is on his way like He promised.
Alas i would have like to have dinner with that brave mouse and listen to his stories 'bout the dawntreader and the journey he's been on.
But you can't have everything.
Want to know more about this brave mouse,swordfighter and servant of the high King himself please read the book: The Voyage of the Dwantreader yourself. It is written by C.S Lewis.
You won't be dissapointed, no you won't cause you must  know i read the book more than four times now.
And that was not because i disliked the story!!

Wardrobe

Leaving Shadowland

“Though our feelings come and go, God’s love for us does not.” C.S Lewis

"To be or not to be that's the question",: Shakespeare wrote some time ago.
Well to me 'to be" is one thing but " to know where to be" is a whole different kind of story.
I've been around some while now. Here in Shadowland. I've seen a lot going wrong,had a lot of arguments with fellow churchmembers and fellow believers and felt very sick for some time.
I did bad things myself,lied,betrayed and reconcilliate as well . To go short: I have sinned also
I can't resist writing down my thoughts on what i've learned from all these experiences.

There has been a time in my life that i consumed everything was told about God,reading the bible and how to pray. That i believed everything that was told about these things were true. I wasn't critical enough to make up my own thoughts about all these issues. What i saw too was a kind of struggle within the church between the brothers and sisters about side-issues that did not relate to our personal beliefs and bond with Christ at al. The struggle about what kind of clothes to wear on sunday, or what to do or to do not on sunday. The struggle about what kind of political party one had to vote for if you would be a true member of the chruch or to be a true christian.
Anyway all kind of struggles were going on in my church between the brothers and sisters at an age (i was young 16-17 i think) a wasn't critical and mature enough to think for myself and make my own true and honest choices in sight of my Lord.
But i realised that staying in this community was not the right thing to do.
So i left,moved to another part of the country and tried to start all over.
I never could find a church like the one i had left.
I have tried but always found the same issues,the same arguments again and again.
At last i have decided not to join any group or church again.
What i do know know is that i am part of Christs body no matter what denomination i belong to.
Because i have discovered that Christs body and love goes far beyond our artifically constructed denominations, that it goes far beyond time and space and matter, that it goes far beyond all we can imagine. Discovering that has set me free from "churchianistic ballast" so to speak.
Now i feel free to speak/pray to God in any way i like, in any way or moment i feel the need to and in every situation i move into.
I have learned to walk with God on the street, at my work, riding my bike, having a party or whatever i do. And yes i also have moments of silence. My soul calms down as
i close my eyes, leaviing shadowland and i feel my spirit soar into the highest calmness of His prescence.
Mark my words, that happens not allways but i've had a few spare moments of that kind .
Selah

LANTERN WASTE

Just behind the backside of the Wardrobe i saw this lantern standing upright in the snow.
I never thought i would come here again. It was stone cold and i was almost freezing to death.
Suddenly i met this small animal like figure. There it came towards me through the snow. It had a huge tail broadened out like a giant tongue at the wrong side of his body. It was " mister beaver" as he introduced himself.
Two shiny teeth like small mirrors were almost blinding me as he laughed.
"Why do you laugh at me? ": i asked him.
He never answered 'cause i woke up and found out that i had dreamed!
What i learned from this is that there is much more between waking and sleep that meets the eye.
To be a sleep is one thing but to sleep and be awake is something different i can tell you now. Reality is much brighter and bigger than before!
When ypu sleep, well , then you just sleep till you wake up again but when you sleep and are awake everything can happen. Like in fairytales you know.
You could fly,change color or just put up some magic tricks on trees and even on animals.

I was in shadowland between reality and imagination. But still i felt a sort of peace knowing that this Land was His land after all.
Except for the cold and the snow it was beautifull and in a sense nice to be there in the first place.
I am still waiting for spring to come , and then summer and than heading for Cair Paravel

to meet the great Emperor.
I know the way, i really do.
But....
do you?