The discovery of heaven on earth.

Trying to walk the way of the Lord.

It’s a difficult thing to do.

It’s mostly about missteps,not dying to myself and trying to  leave behind  the truly bad things .Leave it up to God to handle so to speak.Now, how difficult could that be.

While i’m hearing  myself saying these words i realise that i failed again. 

But...

Praise God, we may lean in Him and be embraced by His  grace for He already knows in advance that we’ll never gonna make it on our own.

In Christ we are free to come to God, to pledge for mercy, for forgiveness and to repent our sin.

What i learn from this is that the more i dare to trust in Him, the more things will work out better in the end. 

It’s a kind of  healing process that cleanses my soul while crawling towards the lamb. 

Not that this leaning in Him will be a recipe for succes. No, no.

But leaning on God, trusting Him and be aware of my dependence on His grace and Love helps me through these troubled and stressfull moments.

These  days, before and after Christmas,  make me humble and aware that we are priviliged people that we may know and love God as He loves us in Christ. 

That He has sent Christ the newborn King to this earth.

That Jesus left heaven to come into our world to set us free from ourself and be liberated people. 

Harry Mulisch ,a famous dutch novellist, wrote in his  bestseller ”The discovery of heaven” that we are all in “ the claws of God “ .

The man was a agnostic writer, lost his parents during the Holocaust and ended up with a pretty negative view on life,God , heaven and hell.

But we have a much positive view on life and liberation.

Jesus Christ has liberated us  from “the claws of Satan.” 

We all know that Satan rebelled already in heaven.

That he wanted to opposed God, in trying to  be God himself.

Therefore he was banned to earth. So we can call earth his prison.

Through Eve, Satan took a hold on Eden and right after that Eve seduced Adam as well, and in doing so they took  Gods creation with them into that “ great Fall” .

Through Mary, God took a stand against brokenness of this world and His Son was born in a manger, without sin, not yet broken, to reconcile creation with it’s creator. Later on while dying on the cross He was broken for our sins and layed down His life voluntarily to mend our broken bondage we’ve ended up with.

Trying to belief this, to walk with God, every day of my life, is both a very difficult thing to do but also a blessing  to know that it is not up to us but up to God to handle.

All we have to do is surrender  us daily to the Newborn King.

Born in a manger in Bethlehem. Not only during Christmas time once a year!

I gladly kneel down,give myself to God and pray that His Spirit will create in me a clean heart.

So help me God almighty.

A merry Christmas everybody and God bless us all.

Watch my clock....

It's running backwards. Yes you're right on the spot. My clock is ticking backwards.
" I don't believe we are evolving into some smarter kind of race, i believe we're going backwards towards some kind of final phase..." (larry norman God part 2 on Agitator)
That's what my clock is trying to say to you all.
We all think that time is going upfront, or up in some way into a bright future  but. . . .
meanwhile we're going counterclockwise moraly, mentally, and sociologically.
The internet promised us disappearing frontiers. Open discussions and  unlimited acces to everything that's worth knowing. But the opposite has taken place also.

Yes everything is said on the internet,but most of us hide behind avatars,nicknames etc.
Some of us intentionally use a false identity to try to seduce young children to illegal actions and activities.
Not mr Tumnus in his cave just behind the back of the wardrobe.
There he tries to study and understand these developments on the net.
If you happn to think that mr Tumnus doesn't know anything about the internet than you are wrong once again! He does know something about communication and telling good stories !
I sugest you read some of the books he plays a part in.
They're all in the narnian chronicles. And if you're hooked up to the true writer CS LEwis try his space trilogy also.
It will do you good.

signed

Wardrobe

Tumnus' neighbor

Where do i write

Every now and than  i have to  pause from life. It can be so cold outside with the snow and all.
As soon as i  have the opportunity i hide myself into TuMnUsCaVe.
There,  at my wooden table, made out of the remnants of an old blood stained cross, i mostly write down my thoughts and contemplations on paper.
I have to break the  bread myself  if i want to eat.
Well you  can't live on air alone you see. One's got to eat and drink.
Ah..., to drink the fruit of the  land of Narnia is a joy every time over and over again.
If you ever get a chance to drink Narnian Wine you should really try.  It's purifying.  It glows and softly oozes down your throat into your stomage. And then it warms you up with a warmth you've never felt before.
There's no alcohol in it, only pure and blood red juice of the finest grapes that have grown in Narnian soil.
So if you do happen to  pay a visit to Narnia, please do try to drink a cup of purifying deep red sparkling Narninan wine. It will make your cup overflow.
But i'll have to be quiet and patient for i am waiting for the great Emperor to come back some day soon.
So today i find myself puzzled about my latest question :" Where did the white witch come from?"
I would ask it directly to Aslan if He was here but we haven't heard of Him lately.
I think He's on a journey into some other worlds, to save some other souls that have lost their way.
By all means i am saved by what He has done for me. You must know that He has given His own life to fullfill the old unbreakable laws of the beginnings .
I mean it's cold outside, but the Witch does not have power over us fauns,animals,trees and sons of Adam.
The Witch has been beaten a long time ago. It is said that Aslan has breathed upon her right into her face and that she could not stand His love and warmth for a bit.
And that from that moment on  the trees do become green every spring and the animals do mate and get offspring  every summer.
I wish i had a wive to love and live with and to have children with but alas i am just a faun, writing down funny stories in his small cave near Lantern Waste. Just at the back side of the Wardrobe where it all began.
Hope i will be able to find out where that bloody witch came from. I think i'll go and ask someone in the library to help me find out about it. In the meantime my scroll is almost full and i'll have to buy me some new empty ones at the local papershop near reepicheeps castle. So untill next time remember the mr Tumnus,and  don't forget:  "Aslan rules!!!"  O,  what lucky chaps we are !

The witch doesn't belong here

On several ocassions i have found out that the witch is often disturbing the fun.
She doesn't love and doesn't act out of love. Here deeds are all focused on herself.
She's always thinking towards herself. In some way she is the queen of the kingdom of self.
In fact she is blind to what others feel in certain circumstances, she is blind for whatever need another person is in. She won't help if she can't benefit herself in it.
So this witch is  a self indulgent person who will end in homegrown,selfmade chaos which nobody in heaven or earth can safe her from anymore. She is blinded by herself. Cold as ice and eartless as a black hole in space. Lonely and lost for ever.
That's her destiny.

When the snow starts melting!!!

When the snow starts melting down the time has come to whom it may concern to look out for a hiding place. 'cause it is evident that as the snow starts to melt the earth , its soil and all the trees and flowers will come back to life again. Animals will start talking again nd we will be able to understand what they say to us. We're all doctor Doolittles by then.
Never doubt these facts 'cause they are written down on the inside of the stonetable.
Together with the small pieces of rope  nibbled through  by the smallest of mice. Nephews of Reepicheep the brave. These are the signs that the great Emperor is on his way like He promised.
Alas i would have like to have dinner with that brave mouse and listen to his stories 'bout the dawntreader and the journey he's been on.
But you can't have everything.
Want to know more about this brave mouse,swordfighter and servant of the high King himself please read the book: The Voyage of the Dwantreader yourself. It is written by C.S Lewis.
You won't be dissapointed, no you won't cause you must  know i read the book more than four times now.
And that was not because i disliked the story!!

Wardrobe

Leaving Shadowland

“Though our feelings come and go, God’s love for us does not.” C.S Lewis

"To be or not to be that's the question",: Shakespeare wrote some time ago.
Well to me 'to be" is one thing but " to know where to be" is a whole different kind of story.
I've been around some while now. Here in Shadowland. I've seen a lot going wrong,had a lot of arguments with fellow churchmembers and fellow believers and felt very sick for some time.
I did bad things myself,lied,betrayed and reconcilliate as well . To go short: I have sinned also
I can't resist writing down my thoughts on what i've learned from all these experiences.

There has been a time in my life that i consumed everything was told about God,reading the bible and how to pray. That i believed everything that was told about these things were true. I wasn't critical enough to make up my own thoughts about all these issues. What i saw too was a kind of struggle within the church between the brothers and sisters about side-issues that did not relate to our personal beliefs and bond with Christ at al. The struggle about what kind of clothes to wear on sunday, or what to do or to do not on sunday. The struggle about what kind of political party one had to vote for if you would be a true member of the chruch or to be a true christian.
Anyway all kind of struggles were going on in my church between the brothers and sisters at an age (i was young 16-17 i think) a wasn't critical and mature enough to think for myself and make my own true and honest choices in sight of my Lord.
But i realised that staying in this community was not the right thing to do.
So i left,moved to another part of the country and tried to start all over.
I never could find a church like the one i had left.
I have tried but always found the same issues,the same arguments again and again.
At last i have decided not to join any group or church again.
What i do know know is that i am part of Christs body no matter what denomination i belong to.
Because i have discovered that Christs body and love goes far beyond our artifically constructed denominations, that it goes far beyond time and space and matter, that it goes far beyond all we can imagine. Discovering that has set me free from "churchianistic ballast" so to speak.
Now i feel free to speak/pray to God in any way i like, in any way or moment i feel the need to and in every situation i move into.
I have learned to walk with God on the street, at my work, riding my bike, having a party or whatever i do. And yes i also have moments of silence. My soul calms down as
i close my eyes, leaviing shadowland and i feel my spirit soar into the highest calmness of His prescence.
Mark my words, that happens not allways but i've had a few spare moments of that kind .
Selah

LANTERN WASTE

Just behind the backside of the Wardrobe i saw this lantern standing upright in the snow.
I never thought i would come here again. It was stone cold and i was almost freezing to death.
Suddenly i met this small animal like figure. There it came towards me through the snow. It had a huge tail broadened out like a giant tongue at the wrong side of his body. It was " mister beaver" as he introduced himself.
Two shiny teeth like small mirrors were almost blinding me as he laughed.
"Why do you laugh at me? ": i asked him.
He never answered 'cause i woke up and found out that i had dreamed!
What i learned from this is that there is much more between waking and sleep that meets the eye.
To be a sleep is one thing but to sleep and be awake is something different i can tell you now. Reality is much brighter and bigger than before!
When ypu sleep, well , then you just sleep till you wake up again but when you sleep and are awake everything can happen. Like in fairytales you know.
You could fly,change color or just put up some magic tricks on trees and even on animals.

I was in shadowland between reality and imagination. But still i felt a sort of peace knowing that this Land was His land after all.
Except for the cold and the snow it was beautifull and in a sense nice to be there in the first place.
I am still waiting for spring to come , and then summer and than heading for Cair Paravel

to meet the great Emperor.
I know the way, i really do.
But....
do you?